The past two months were totally a whirlwind of events. If I had been a nuclear reactor, I would have probably just melted down and spewed out tons of frustrations.
My acads went spiraling down. Really, this semester was a major flop. A mess. I'm now desperately struggling to pass my units. Oh my God, what happened to my major subjects? I was totally out of focus. With all of the distractions and shit.
My bid to becoming UP ALCHEMES' next Executive Officer for Internal Affairs was a big disappointment. It was a good start, but that was all it was. The competition was neck-to-neck, I even thought I still had a big chance to win. After all of the hardwork and campaigning, I fell short with one vote. One freakin' vote. The only thing that comforts me is that a big percent of our population put their trust unto me, and I am very thankful for that. Through this experience, I also realized how big a deal it is to be a part of our organization's Executive Council, and more so, being the President.
I also tried to join the ChESI. I was confident that I would be picked because of my good credentials. And I aced the interview (I think). Again, to no avail. At first, it was okay with me, thinking that they (the ChE Reps) wanted to train the younger batches and that I could develop my potentials more through other avenues like the UP CAPES (I plan to join next sem). But when Kathy Madlambayan told me that what happened could probably be politically-motivated, considering the fact that 4 out of 5 of the ChE reps were from UP PRIME, a bitter feeling upsurged. Good thing it was just short-lived. I don't want to give a fucking fuck about it anymore. Let's just bury the hatchet and move forward, okay?
ARISE seemed to be a promising endeavor, so I attempted to run for the position of VP for Elections. Unfortunately, a co-candidate for the Inte ExO position also decided to run. Since I did not want anymore to compete, I withdrew my candidacy. Instead, I volunteered to be a Director for Electoral Affairs. Though after the mock Miting de Avance, I was also attracted to the plans of Jape Esguerra for the Externals Committee. I specifically liked the concept of making documentaries on the most pressing issues concerning the College of Engineering. Maybe I need more time to think which job I should take, but I'm now more inclined to be part of Exte.
Another distraction was being a pre-CAMP staff for the Engineering Committee. It was just another whole pile of stress, with the head continually bugging us to make those stupid powerpoint templates. Oh well, it's a good training for me if ever I become the next Engg Core member for this year's CSIW.
With everything that has happened, do I regret anything? Maybe. I could have concentrated on my acads and not have a hard time when wrapping-up time comes. But I do not regret having experienced all this. After all that I've been through, I hope to come out as a better, stronger individual.
I will truly treasure and cultivate all that I have learned this semester, but...
I just want to graduate ON TIME. I don't want to disappoint my parents. That's the last thing that I would want to do. And please, I just want to pass my subjects. I hate re-taking a subject. Experiencing such kind of stress once is already more than enough. And I truly, madly, deeply want to pass all of my subjects this sem (esp. the ChE courses). Please Lord, lend me Your mercy. I promise to be a better student in the next semesters that will come.
I hope that after this, I'll finally learn my lesson. (That's what she said!)
Tama na ang Facebook at Tumblr. Acads muna.
My acads went spiraling down. Really, this semester was a major flop. A mess. I'm now desperately struggling to pass my units. Oh my God, what happened to my major subjects? I was totally out of focus. With all of the distractions and shit.
My bid to becoming UP ALCHEMES' next Executive Officer for Internal Affairs was a big disappointment. It was a good start, but that was all it was. The competition was neck-to-neck, I even thought I still had a big chance to win. After all of the hardwork and campaigning, I fell short with one vote. One freakin' vote. The only thing that comforts me is that a big percent of our population put their trust unto me, and I am very thankful for that. Through this experience, I also realized how big a deal it is to be a part of our organization's Executive Council, and more so, being the President.
I also tried to join the ChESI. I was confident that I would be picked because of my good credentials. And I aced the interview (I think). Again, to no avail. At first, it was okay with me, thinking that they (the ChE Reps) wanted to train the younger batches and that I could develop my potentials more through other avenues like the UP CAPES (I plan to join next sem). But when Kathy Madlambayan told me that what happened could probably be politically-motivated, considering the fact that 4 out of 5 of the ChE reps were from UP PRIME, a bitter feeling upsurged. Good thing it was just short-lived. I don't want to give a fucking fuck about it anymore. Let's just bury the hatchet and move forward, okay?
ARISE seemed to be a promising endeavor, so I attempted to run for the position of VP for Elections. Unfortunately, a co-candidate for the Inte ExO position also decided to run. Since I did not want anymore to compete, I withdrew my candidacy. Instead, I volunteered to be a Director for Electoral Affairs. Though after the mock Miting de Avance, I was also attracted to the plans of Jape Esguerra for the Externals Committee. I specifically liked the concept of making documentaries on the most pressing issues concerning the College of Engineering. Maybe I need more time to think which job I should take, but I'm now more inclined to be part of Exte.
Another distraction was being a pre-CAMP staff for the Engineering Committee. It was just another whole pile of stress, with the head continually bugging us to make those stupid powerpoint templates. Oh well, it's a good training for me if ever I become the next Engg Core member for this year's CSIW.
With everything that has happened, do I regret anything? Maybe. I could have concentrated on my acads and not have a hard time when wrapping-up time comes. But I do not regret having experienced all this. After all that I've been through, I hope to come out as a better, stronger individual.
I will truly treasure and cultivate all that I have learned this semester, but...
I just want to graduate ON TIME. I don't want to disappoint my parents. That's the last thing that I would want to do. And please, I just want to pass my subjects. I hate re-taking a subject. Experiencing such kind of stress once is already more than enough. And I truly, madly, deeply want to pass all of my subjects this sem (esp. the ChE courses). Please Lord, lend me Your mercy. I promise to be a better student in the next semesters that will come.
I hope that after this, I'll finally learn my lesson. (That's what she said!)
Tama na ang Facebook at Tumblr. Acads muna.
